Monday, May 31, 2010
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Friday, May 28, 2010
planted most of the flowers just now. then i had to stop and come in and take an advil. only have a few more pots to do and the white rhodie that we bought.
i have purple petunias and pink, white inpatients and pink a geranium that i haven't a clue as to the color, some little blue fizzy flowers-not sure of what they are and some red somethings!
oh, and i did buy my basil plants- HAVE to have basil! i passed by the tomato plants this year. i can not take the stress of willing the little guy to grow only to be heartbroken like last year when that tomato blight swept thru.
i have purple petunias and pink, white inpatients and pink a geranium that i haven't a clue as to the color, some little blue fizzy flowers-not sure of what they are and some red somethings!
oh, and i did buy my basil plants- HAVE to have basil! i passed by the tomato plants this year. i can not take the stress of willing the little guy to grow only to be heartbroken like last year when that tomato blight swept thru.
Thursday, May 27, 2010
sadly, the medical helicopter and all the police cars from this morning couldn't save the man that was hit by a truck while riding his bicycle to work. when they showed his photo and the black and yellow of his cycling team i realized that i had seen him many times. i feel sad for his family and friends.
I Do Not Love You Except Because I Love You
by Pablo Neruda
I do not love you except because I love you;
I go from loving to not loving you,
From waiting to not waiting for you
My heart moves from cold to fire.
I love you only because it's you the one I love;
I hate you deeply, and hating you
Bend to you, and the measure of my changing love for you
Is that I do not see you but love you blindly.
Maybe January light will consume
My heart with its cruel
Ray, stealing my key to true calm.
In this part of the story I am the one who
Dies, the only one, and I will die of love because I love you,
Because I love you, Love, in fire and blood.
by Pablo Neruda
I do not love you except because I love you;
I go from loving to not loving you,
From waiting to not waiting for you
My heart moves from cold to fire.
I love you only because it's you the one I love;
I hate you deeply, and hating you
Bend to you, and the measure of my changing love for you
Is that I do not see you but love you blindly.
Maybe January light will consume
My heart with its cruel
Ray, stealing my key to true calm.
In this part of the story I am the one who
Dies, the only one, and I will die of love because I love you,
Because I love you, Love, in fire and blood.
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
it is actually sunny and hot outside. wow, i'm amazed.
went out for luch today-very unusual and so i only had some pizza rolls and iced tea for dinner. still too full from a fine lunch. a salad of mixed greens and baby spinach with a grilled chicken breast sliced and stuff with warm feta! heaven.
not sure what i want to do til bed. i did drag out my cement tools and molds the other day and washed them and let them out to dry but i need my old work table and that's in the back of the shed yet.
there are some books that i want to get started reading but i haven't been able to relax enough to do that. i can't seem to focus for long. not even to pop in a dvd and watch a movie. that's a result of the reglan. that stuff rewired my brain along with giving me a tremor that has gotten to be barely noticeable, thankfully.
i miss being able to curl up with a book and read without having to stop and get up and walk around every chapter or so!
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
The great American book that refutes Rand Paul - Rand Paul | Kentucky Senate Republican, Ron Paul's Son - Salon.com
The great American book that refutes Rand Paul - Rand Paul | Kentucky Senate Republican, Ron Paul's Son - Salon.com
i read it in jr high. i still have a copy.
it is a small but powerful book and for those of you younger than me-i really suggest you pick up a copy.
i read it in jr high. i still have a copy.
it is a small but powerful book and for those of you younger than me-i really suggest you pick up a copy.
Monday, May 24, 2010
this is brad dowling. he has NF and this is me, i have NF.
we aren't alone. there are many many of us. more of us than those with MS and CF and MD combined. it's time to get the word OUT THERE. we aren't contagious, just as cystic fibrosis or multiple sclerosis or muscular dystrophy isn't contagious. it's a genetic screw up. the luck of the draw, life, that's all it was, life. but it's a life sentence and you can help. we need more research and we really need more understanding out there. some of us rarely venture out because of the stares of people that just aren't sure why a lot of us look as we do. some of us have learning disabilities and are labeled as slow or worse yet, lazy and stubborn. some of us are clumsy or are in pain from things going wrong inside of us. things unseen but playing havoc with different body systems. a lot of us have issues with depression, sneaky nasty chemical imbalances.
when i was a teenager, years and years BEFORE i was diagnosed i was asked to do a lady's hair. a wash and set on a woman in her early sixties. as i ran the water over her head and started to lather in the shampoo, i discovered that her scalp was simply covered with pea sized hard bumps. i didn't say anything and washed her hair then tried as best i could to set it in rollers. i wish she would have said something. i wish i would have had the courage to ask. i know now what it was. i guess she did, perhaps not. maybe she hid it just as an elderly man that lived a few blocks from me did for his whole life. i never met him. i never saw him. his only friend was the older man that lived 3 houses up from me. bud would go and bring him what he needed. bud said that his friend never left the little old wooden farmhouse that his family owned for years. he lived alone. i am not sure for how long. bud said one day that this man had lumps and bumps over his whole body and was too embarrassed or scared to go out. he died a few years before bud and the old white farm house sits empty but i think of that unseen man every time i pass by.
may is NF awareness month. may is almost over but for us and for those to come may never ends. we are ALWAYS aware of it. whether we choose to call it a disease or a condition or a fucking pain, doesn't matter really. it is what it IS. we'd like more people to know about it and understand and HELP.
oh, and as an incentive, a little something to think on- 50 percent of the time NF just pops up in a family with no history of it and this- is a neat thing to ponder- scientists think that if and WHEN the get a real handle on this it very well could lead to a CURE for cancer! makes sense when you think about it.
so, think about it. thanks.
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Friday, May 21, 2010
from mike lucas:
Quotes of the day - "Americans... still believe in an America where anything's possible - they just don't think their leaders do." - Barack Obama - "Change will not come if we wait for some other person or some other time. We are the ones we've been waiting for. We are the change that we seek." - Barack Obama - "Believe you can and yo...u're halfway there." - Theodore Roosevelt - "Do what you can, with what you have, where you are." - Theodore Roosevelt - "Don't join the book burners. Do not think you are going to conceal thoughts by concealing evidence that they ever existed." - Dwight D. Eisenhower - "Every gun that is made, every warship launched, every rocket fired, signifies in the final sense a theft from those who hunger and are not fed, those who are cold and are not clothed." - Dwight D. Eisenhower - "Competition has been shown to be useful up to a certain point and no further, but cooperation, which is the thing we must strive for today, begins where competition leaves off."- Franklin D. Roosevelt - "In our seeking for economic and political progress, we all go up - or else we all go down."
- Franklin D. RooseveltSee More
Quotes of the day - "Americans... still believe in an America where anything's possible - they just don't think their leaders do." - Barack Obama - "Change will not come if we wait for some other person or some other time. We are the ones we've been waiting for. We are the change that we seek." - Barack Obama - "Believe you can and yo...u're halfway there." - Theodore Roosevelt - "Do what you can, with what you have, where you are." - Theodore Roosevelt - "Don't join the book burners. Do not think you are going to conceal thoughts by concealing evidence that they ever existed." - Dwight D. Eisenhower - "Every gun that is made, every warship launched, every rocket fired, signifies in the final sense a theft from those who hunger and are not fed, those who are cold and are not clothed." - Dwight D. Eisenhower - "Competition has been shown to be useful up to a certain point and no further, but cooperation, which is the thing we must strive for today, begins where competition leaves off."- Franklin D. Roosevelt - "In our seeking for economic and political progress, we all go up - or else we all go down."
- Franklin D. RooseveltSee More
You Are Glamourous and Graceful |
 You have deep, sophisticated tastes. You appreciate the rich subtleties of life, and you avoid anything too crass or commercial. You believe in savoring every moment of life. You are a minimalist, and you don't like to over do things. You know that a little goes a long way. You can appreciate a piece of expensive dark chocolate, and prefer it to a fast food milkshake. You have a great personal style that others envy. You know how to spot an underrated object from miles away. |
You Have an Extremely Active Imagination |
 Your mind is vivid, lively, and colorful. There is a lot going on in your head. You have the ability to make pictures and movies in your mind. You are extremely visual. Your creativity knows no bounds. You don't put restrictions or limits on your thoughts. You have a gift that other people wish they had. So exercise that imagination as much as you want! |
You Are 72% Open Minded |
 You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded. Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints. But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line. You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself. |
Thursday, May 20, 2010
reallyREALLY??? i almost choked watching this live last night:
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Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Schiavo Family Profits From Death | worldwide hippies
Schiavo Family Profits From Death | worldwide hippies
remember this??? funny how republicans still yammer on about less government and LESS government intrusion but...
and so, her family makes money and her widower has to live with the lies told about him.
remember this??? funny how republicans still yammer on about less government and LESS government intrusion but...
and so, her family makes money and her widower has to live with the lies told about him.
the 5 falcon chicks were banded yesterday. i watched the film on the news yesterday and there were pictures in the pg this morning. i'm happy they are all healthy.
they look so tiny on the webcam but when they are held and banded you can see that they are really about the size of chickens!
i check in on them and the younger ones a few times each day. i look forward to it every spring.
they look so tiny on the webcam but when they are held and banded you can see that they are really about the size of chickens!
i check in on them and the younger ones a few times each day. i look forward to it every spring.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
YES! the new chair and loveseat came today! the sofa i had from my mother when she passed away last september. our loveseat had really REALLY seen better days-you have no idea. even the cover i tried to disguise it with was fraying and had holes. when some family members have claws and fur and some are chubby and like to leap on things-well...
so, there was this sale and it was a good one and...
i can remember the first furniture we had. the couch was from around WWII and the coffee table had 1 leg that insisted on falling off no matter how it was fixed up.
there was a mattress and box springs bought from cashing in my small life insurance policy and a few odds and ends of furniture picked from the threat of the trash heap.
over the years i've had things come and go. this stuff is so nice and i'm very happy and very grateful.