tired, but happy that most of the work is done with.
so, now i'm just trying to think if everything really is in order.

i hope so. i want the holidays to be good for everyone.
me? i'm sort of a grinch i suppose. a grinch when it comes to enjoying them myself.

it does make me feel good when i know i've helped someone else have fun.
i've sent in my holiday checks to my favorite orgs. that makes me happy.

seeing my little sweetie believing in santa and his magic makes me smile.

i just wish i knew how to be happy. maybe i am and i just don't realize it?
not sure, but, what is, is.